When you look back on life, any life, you have the fantastic benefit of hindsight. You know, the ability to see what happened, how, and why, so that in the event of it happening again, you can say, "Ahhhh, yes, saw this once, and this is how I'm going to deal with it this time".
What you don't get is the ability to see your life at the start so you can prepare yourself for the things to come.
Now, I'm not saying that I'd change anything if I could've, far from it. But I'd have been able to make a large wager back then, because some of those things that are infolding as the days tick by are unbelievable, even for me and my open mind. Life is seriously twisted.
We live in a small world, made all the more smaller by technology. But the technology still isn't there to stop terrible things from happening, and taking away things you cherish beyond belief itself.
I'm off to bed now, in the hope that I'll wake up in the morning and realise the last few days, weeks, months, and years have all been one seriously screwed up dream.
