January 29, 2004
La bella vita
It's late and I should really be in bed by now. Well technically I am in bed (the joys of owning a laptop and all), I'm just not asleep. I got home fairly late after watching the second part of "His Dark Materials" and pottered around a little before going to bed. And I've been failing to get to sleep since.
It's not unusual for me. Particularly when something noteworthy has been going on. I'll find myself lying in bed late at night pondering recent events. What's keeping me up tonight appears to be a mixture of excitement and malaise. The excitement is easily explained, since I'm going on holiday on Friday and it's an event I'm very much looking forward too. The malaise isn't explained away quite so simply. I just feel out of sorts, with a kind of vague feeling of impending doom in the pit of my stomach. It's happened before and I have difficult explaining what's behind it. I think it's just down a whole heap of minor problems all deciding to converge on me at once. It's hardly grounds for me to feel sorry for myself though. However bad I may feel, it doesn't really begin to compare to what several of my friends have been going through recently. Needless to say I wish nothing but happiness for my friends and I'm certainly hoping that fortune will favour them sooner rather than later. They deserve it, after all. More so than I do, at that (tsk, feeling sorry for myself. Bad Mark!).
Anyway, if I carry along with that train of thought I'm likely to become quite maudlin. So, for a change of pace, this game made me laugh. Especially the end credits.
Now I'm going to get back to this sleeping business...
Thought iMark at January 29, 2004 01:51 AM | TrackBackFor the comment "They deserve it, after all. More so than I do, at that" I intend to smack you upside the head when you get here. You've been warned. Maybe I'll just stick you outside without a coat for a few mins. Same effect in -30 F.
Cut that crap out right the phuq now!
You are one of the most caring, open, forgiving, friendly people I have met in my entire life. You think first of others and, in *my* opinion, not nearly enough about yourself. (Maybe that's the problem, maybe you just don't have enough practise).
Right. That said, I'm also not going to let you bottle it up. We'll talk. As you may have noticed of late, we have a rather special group of people around here. We'll help any and all who need it. Whenever they need it. It don't do no good to let that stuff stew. It tends to ferment. There's a few of us here who can attest to that. Especially Vinay, who saw what that did to a curry once :-)
"Therapists of the Endz unite! We got another one!"
Posted by: Kevin at January 29, 2004 04:37 AM