Restless tonight

For the past few weeks I've not been having any trouble sleeping. I go to bed, close my eyes and gently drift off to the land of nod without any problems at all. Except... except I don't want to. And I don't know why.

This is an unusual situation for me. I actively like sleeping and have nothing but positive thoughts memories associated with it. And dreaming too - dreaming remains perhaps my single favourite activity. But I just don't want to go to sleep. I've been finding myself staying up later and later, reading, playing games, watching television, browsing the net - my usual horsemen of procrastination. Nothing constructive or creative, nothing more than excuses to stay up late. And I'm a grown man for goodness sake - I haven't needed an excuse to stay up late since half a lifetime ago.

Nothing obvious strikes me as a probable cause. No bad dreams or nightmares - but then I never have bad dreams or nightmares. It could be climate related I suppose - there has been something of a warm spell recently and I do sleep less during the summer months, although this normally manifests itself in my waking earlier. Some deeper underlying cause perhaps? Not that I know of. I just don't want to sleep. I just started iTunes randomly flitting through songs (further procrastination) and the first song to begin playing was "One Thing" by Finger Eleven. It's a good song (or at least, I like it - make of that what you will), but it's first line happens to be "restless tonight".

I can relate to that.